Why I’m Here: A Journey of Self-Discovery

To begin, I simply want to write about why I’m embarking on this new journey of creating a blog. As I have been coming in to adulthood and figuring out “who I am”. I have mostly felt that I either have no identity, or 12 identities. I’ve realized, though, that defining myself as one thing based on what I do, how I’m feeling, or where I am is simply not the answer. Self-discovery is a long journey, I hope you’ll join me for the ride. I’m so happy you’re here.

I have lived in quite a few different places. Between third grade and college, I had never even been to the same school for more than three years . A lot of people I knew went to school with the same people from Pre-K all the way through High School Graduation. 

I’ve always jumped in and out of other people’s lives.

I was always the new kid at school, floating around different friend groups, maybe getting close with a few people until I would inevitably leave. This isn’t to say changing schools was always bad, hell I begged for it in high school! It wasn’t about the people either… There was something in me that couldn’t stay put. Something in me that felt like there was a missing piece or where I was just didn’t feel right.

When I was 8 years old, I moved for the first time from Northern Virginia to Central Vermont. In VT, I lived in the same house for almost 10 years, but during that time I attended 6 different schools (including college and a year of being homeschooled). 

With all this change, I got used to the few constants in my life. My family, my house, my jobs, and my passions: theater, music, athletics.. and maybe a couple others.

For more time than I attended any one school, I held two different jobs in Vermont. I worked for my dad at our family’s Bed and Breakfast starting in 2006. Every summer from 2013 to 2017, I also worked at the local deli, following in my sister’s footsteps.

One of the first things I did when I moved to Vermont was have my parents help me scope out the community theatre scene. My passion for theatre was one of the few things I brought with me on the move, and it is still one of the most important pieces of my life. I grew to have a constant group of people with whom I did theatre in town, all from different schools. With this consistency for a while, I was able to deal with the change at home and between schools.

It’s having at least one consistency like that, that I have learned I really need. Lately though, I’ve been struggling to identify what that is for me now. After graduating college and feeling like the entire world turned upside down, I got very very lost. That’s when I really knew I needed to find a true sense of self, and I am discovering myself more each day.

I wear a lot of hats.

I work full-time at a hotel in Manhattan, I audition and keep up my artistic practice as much as possible, as well as make plans for a future business endeavor with a close friend of mine from college (much more on all of this later, don’t worry).

I wear a lot of hats. I always have. I’m good at juggling multiple responsibilities (I can also actually juggle thanks to a little week-long camp I went to in middle school… haha). I’m good at keeping organized, and learning how to do lots of different things. I tend to get bored if things stay the same for too long. I can easily get over stimulated though, and I’m constantly learning how to set limits for myself in order not to burn out.

For so long I had this idea in my head that I had to choose one thing and do it completely. Well let me just say, it has been quite a whirlwind unlearning that and growing out of that mindset. I always thought I knew what the one thing I wanted to do was, and it turns out that there other things I can layer in to my life as well! Who knew?! Honestly, I didn’t.

With this blog, I intend to share my journey and things I’ve learned to help me along the way. I also aim to be as genuine as possible about some of the struggles and doubts that come with being in multiple fields for career and business. I am starting this in a time of great change, and hope to learn more than I can even imagine. 

Have you always had a strong sense of self or are you on this journey of self-discovery with me? What is something you have re-discovered about yourself last year that you’re excited to dive into? Let me know below!

Share your success in self-discovery, it is not taken lightly. ❤️